掐指一算

今天真是个值得纪念的日子，涨工资了！

到手的钱是以前的1.7倍了，现在花钱可以淡定一点，不用算计了。真的差很多啊。手机装了个记账的应用，记了俩月了，现在用不着再去记了。。。

据我统计我靠工资的钱，工作一年以来压根没攒下钱。之所以手头不紧是因为有些外快。

但是我还是要出国读书啊，下个月可能就会面试吧。加油。下午跟朋友聊起，他说改变才有意思嘛。确实，如果你知道自己想要什么，知道往哪个方向改变，那么就把握机会吧。

特此留念。

initiation of my career as an engineer

last year in my interview by my current company, the interviewer asked me "tell me your plan in the next five years", then i said something like starting from those fundamental tasks trying to improve myself by accumulating skills and knowledges blablabla... actually, i never gave a damn about the so-called life plan. the reason for this is not only that i'm lazy for this but also that i don't want to constrain my self into some preestablished categories.

and now i've been at work for more than a month, everything is normal and those previous worries concerning adjusting myself to a new role is superfluous. the workplace relationship that most chinese people deem dangerous and complex is no different from my relationship with other people. maybe that's partly due to the fact that i'm in a foreign company. i enjoy working with my colleagues. they are diversified, most of them between 22 and 35 so i had no difficulty communicating with these young guys. the senior guys are nice as well, easy to get along with, at first i call them predecessors, once i had a chat with them i just call their names.

we have some great footballers. one guy from hust was a member of the university soccer team. he has wide vision and proficient skills although he's only about 1.65m tall. and he's not the only one whose level is above mine, we also have about 5 such guys, although not as outstanding as him. i don't know if it's fortunate or just the opposite, but i'm the tallest in the team 呵呵 so i play center back, which is not an unfamiliar position to me.

as a freshman, i don't have much tasks assigned to me. i'm learning some softwares. sometimes i regret that i did't take enough time during university to get to know my possible job description and those professional skills i might need. but that doesn't matter.

the income, just fairly OK for an fresh graduate. housing and eating take about half of it. i have another income resource, although not very much, and that make my life easier.

solely  judging by income, i'm not wealthy and i may not be in the near future. it's always good to have more money and i'm proud of every penny i make through my own work. but i'm not very eager to be wealthy. 钱嘛慢慢总会有的. i'm confident about this. i feel free now because i now have full control of my life and i don't need to care what others (especially my mom 呵呵)say about my life.

but it's just too hot in shanghai. i kinda miss qingdao, sometimes.

utada hikaru

今年的某天在豆瓣電台搖到一首《prisoner of love》，被強烈的節奏和美妙的旋律吸引住，雖然不知道在唱些什麼，但是憑標題和最後的幾句“stay with me”，可以想見歌手想要表達的反复和掙扎。真是非常動聽。按照習慣性的做法我在谷歌音樂、蝦米、豆瓣上搜索歌手宇多田光的歌曲和評價，還在維基百科上看了她的條目。幾首歌聽下來都是很有吸引力，我自知沒什麼鑑賞力，聽歌純為耳朵舒服，這就很OK了，我喜歡這歌手。

好就好在她唱日文的同時也唱很多英文歌，而且沒有一絲的accent，非常舒服，日本歌手中比較少見吧，後來才注意到她本就是美國出生的，不過作為一個在美國長大的人，能把日語說的跟母語一樣也非常不容易啊……

關於她有不少有趣的軼事和小傳奇，經歷上寫滿著才華橫溢，維基百科上都有。prisoner of love反复在聽，甚至能和著唱出一點音標日語了。有時候真希望自己懂日語，雖然歌詞都有中文翻譯，但是達意肯定不如日語精確微妙，這就是語言的魅力。那些為了愛好而毅然學習日語的ACG眾們，真心佩服他們啊。對於我，至少現在為了聽懂光而學日語是沒必要的。

有朋友說，绝大多数的流行乐歌词都是毁文学的，英文尤甚。然。westlife式赤果果的白開水就不說了。viva la vida的歌詞被認為是挺屌的比較有內涵的，然而它的詩性我想比不上平庸的十四行詩吧。然而即便歌詞毀文學又如何呢，讓文學的歸文學，流行樂的歸流行樂吧。文學是終究是小眾的有心人的糧食，流行樂嘛，聽著樂呵就好，顯然不能指望流行樂的歌詞有多少文學性，不然就真的曲高和寡了。

宇多田光的歌詞（我只知道英文的）也都比較上口，看上去挺普通，實際上也挺普通。她的才華更體現在一下這一事實：所有歌都是自己作詞作曲，不同風格間轉換自如。

早上得知她在去年十月暫時隱退，留下一個華麗的謝幕演出。當然得知這個消息有點遺憾了。其實想想也沒什麼，即使她永遠不做音樂了，她的歌還在的。祝她的過得順利。

球赛小记

有一段时间没码字了。球赛是大学里少有的能让人怀有期待的事。这么一个大校区，只有一块球场，每天傍晚都有好几茬人同时在场地上踢蛋疼的小场，我对踢小场向来没兴趣，因为那种宽度限制了我的视野。所以能有一整块的踢全场的时间是很难得的，只有上足球课和组织比赛的时候。

虽然底子相当差，会些基本功的就没几个，本以为经过两年的磨合我们的配合日臻成熟了。但是两个多月没踢又生疏了。今天的对手是曾经被我们虐过的09级同专业队（的确有好多对比咱还菜的），他们有长进了吗？

我们有个梦幻般的开局，三无中锋肥垚就好那软柿子捏，他利用对方发球门球时候的一片混乱趁机打进一球，比赛开始不到五分钟。对方的守门员和我们大一时候的守门员一样，不会开大脚，拿到球后不知所措，要在队友的指示下才采取行动。不久我在无人防守的情况下小禁区角上劲射得分，其实那球射的不怎么好，直接打在对方门将控制范围内，但是他太没经验了，总之完全可以扑到的球也给进了。老孟又打进一个十六门球，被判越位，随它去了。

之后是你来我往，场面上我们占优，我们打法也很粗糙，后卫漫无目的的解围，让谁抢到了谁就往前带，带的不行了就随便一传。我的拿球机会比较多，盘带也过多，很少制造出真正威胁，传球也都是荒腔走板，有失水准。只有一次沿底线成功突破左脚传中，完全凭感觉，肥垚差一点够到球，只要碰到那球就进了。然后不知咋整的不知咋整的，对方一个大脚，处理球拖拉是菜鸟后卫的通病，球在后卫脚下被让给了对方，对方一马平川，单刀破门。你指望后卫有回追的意识和速度是不可能的……上半场结束。苏杰也不在状态，我给他传的几个球也很失败。

下半场一开始是胶着，球在空中乱飞，我做着徒劳的往返跑，拿不到球。仅有的几次都是拖泥带水的盘带被阻截掉。有段时间被对方压制，眼看快破门了，对方有射门机会都没有尝试。场面很沉闷。我们通过几次角球机会稳住了阵脚。有好运相助了。我就开了那么一次角球。落点不错，当然我没有想过要找哪个点，只要开到禁区内就能引起混乱……肥垚高高跃起，他能跳那么高也挺不容易的额，他显然没判断对落点，因为球砸在他胸部撞进球门了。想必球砸在奶子上那下很疼吧，呵呵。

后卫会停球会出球是多么重要啊，这样才不会慌乱，只有小强有这潜质。被顶了一下肺，还隐隐作痛。